I admire anybody who is on bedrest for any reason, for any prolonged amount of time and remains sane to tell about it. I tell you what, your mind becomes your worst enemy. It constantly bounces around from one thought to the next. One minute, you feel good and positive. The next minute, you feel lonely and depressed. It’s crazy. I had to break out the giant sudoku book today just to distract my mind. Maybe I will become a sudoku master.
The hardest part. Sitting on the couch feeling like a lump and watching everybody living their “normal” life around you. Also, you are forced to watch someone else run your home. Basically, it’s like someone layed you off from your career but are requiring you to sit and watch while someone else does your thing but not quite in the same way. The project that took you 10 years to build. Yeah, someone else is working on it right in front of you. It’s torture I tell you!
Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely grateful for the help we have received. We wouldn’t be able to survive without our friends and family. The kids wouldn’t be fed, clothed or at school. Our refrigerator would be empty and our house would be condemned by the city as a health hazard. Even though it’s hard for me to let go, at least that stuff is being prevented by others generosity.
So, if you think that bedrest is a piece of cake, think otherwise. be grateful that you can move your legs and can sneeze or pass gas without fear of body organs ripping apart. The things that are getting me through this are first of all, the thought that this too shall pass and we will be holding a healthy baby in a few months. Second of all, the channel A&E. That’s right, the Arts and Entertainment channel on tv.
If you think your life is difficult, watch the shows on A&E. There’s the show Intervention (one of my personal faves), 48 Hours, Dog the Bounty Hunter, The Cleaner, Cold Case Files and numerous other cop type/forensic shows. I think these really appeal to me because at one point in my life, I wanted to be a cop/detective. But really, there’s nothing like watching some drug addicts and unsolved murders to make you feel blessed. There’s always something for everybody and it could always be worse. After watching these shows, I am thankful to be at home safe in bed without suffering from a heroin addiction. It’s better than therapy or pills and much cheaper.
Now, as for the baby. As far as I know, there has been no change since last week. Except in my butt, I think that has gotten much larger and flatter since last week. I can’t see inside my womb. I wish they had sent me home with an ultrasound machine. How fun would that be?? It would have provided hours of entertainment. I still think I feel little taps down there if I sit very still for a while, especially at night. Hopefully, no new news is good news. I will know for sure in a couple days when I go for my next evaluation. I’ll let you all know if anything more exciting turns up. Right now, it’s ground hog day over here and I want to spare you all from the monotony of my life.
September 30, 2008 at 2:53 am
I’m really sorry to hear what you are going through. I really hope everything turns out ok. Bedrest has always been my biggest fear with each pregnancy. I am not on bed rest but close to it, as I fell 3 weeks ago and broke my foot. It is slow to heal, and still not feeling much better but I’m trying to keep my chin up. Anyway, you’re in my thoughts. I know how hard it is to have to depend on other people to take care of your kids and house!
September 30, 2008 at 12:42 pm
Looks like you’ve been doing alot of crime research. You now have the abilities of a super sleuth! Now if we can just improve your Butt Kickin’ skills, you might just be the 4th Charlie’s Angel.
Hang in there!!
October 1, 2008 at 3:14 am
I’m glad you haven’t had any more hemmoraging (sp?). I’ll be waiting for your update.
October 1, 2008 at 9:34 am
Oh the knowledge you are gaining!!!! Super sleuth!!!!! You can find your numb butt!!!
Oh so much I do not envy your bedrest. I have been there—and done it alone and it was not easy to do even alone and not watching anyone helping! Thought I would go crazy! I got to HATE the bed!!!!! (I got over it-and love it again!) Hang in dear and hopefully it will all soon behind you! All who love you are rooting for you!!! All your friends and family LOVE to help you and know you would love to reciprocate for us. hang in!!!!!! Bask in the love of others.
October 9, 2008 at 2:39 am
OMG You are preggers! I moved out of GR and so much has changed! Congrats.